Cravings

I’m having really weird food cravings right now. For some reason noodles with stir fried broccoli would just be amazing. It’s ten o’clock at night. I can’t reasonably make that right? And then there’s the even weirder craving I have for tempura vegetables. God that would be good. OH! And that Smartfood cheese popcorn! Omonom! Not all together though... I have a feeling that would be gross. At least part of my brain is still working. Hmmm... I can have the noodles for lunch and perhaps convince someone to go out for sushi with me where I shall also eat tempura vegetables. Don’t know about the popcorn. I’ll see if I can work that in there somewhere.

There, I fit it between paragraphs.

So, as you can probably guess, I’m hungry. Well, not really. Old habits die hard. I’m trying not to eat simply because I’m bored. It’s not fair that gaining weight is so much more fun than losing it. Although, I do have to say that apart from the odd craving (odd in all senses of the word) the whole diet and exercise thing isn’t so bad. Not seeing many changes yet, but I am sleeping better and I’ll keep working on it for that reason alone. I’ve never really been a very good sleeper so anything not drug related that will help is well worth it. On top of which, I realize that it took me years to get to where I am weight wise. It’s not logical to expect change overnight.

Also in the category of doing things for myself, I’ve decided that I’m going to be temporarily putting aside my more... how shall I put this... political activities. After a few years working with various groups I find myself more frustrated than fulfilled. I’m on the hunt for a new activity. Because for me, it’s important to have something that will bring me into contact with people, otherwise, I play the hermit. I also like having something that’s outside my school work, job or regular activities so I can look forward to something. I have something in mind but I’m not quite decided yet. If I actually go through with it I’ll let you know. I’m actually surprised that it peaked my interest at all. One of the many benefits is that it will require me to get over that pesky shy streak that’s been my nemesis since birth. I’m interested to see if after twenty two years I’ll be able to squash it. It’s overdue for some squashing. We’ll see how it goes.

That’s about all I have to report today.

Lauren.